@jason Thank you. It's odd how life does this trick where you've got almost everything balanced, except for that one thing. It used to be money that would be my weak spot. now, money is never an issue, but my social life is.

@stillinhere life is weird 😕

@yanthor I'm not precisely an atheist. I've gotten rid of most of the things I held onto, but other aspects have not moved on. However, I am not at all interested in organized religion or church. I've never fit in at churches. That's a major factor for why I am isolated here. Even in the pagan organizations, I found myself frustrated, when I was trying on that identity.

@yanthor My group was anchored in the subculture of nightclubs and for a time, LARPing. We all grew up or maybe just got old. Others moved far away from this region when they could.

@stillinhere My experience is pretty similar. I did not fit in with the small English-speaking Buddhist group that I spent some time with for a while. Most of my social interaction involves board gaming, RPG, or online games w/ voice chat.

But I find myself feeling isolated most of the time, without a community to fall back on if I need the help. Just a few isolated friends which are well-meaning, but not the same as the all encompassing almost cult-like “church family” I grew up with.