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This is counter to how one should use such a communication tool, I think, but I woke up in a dark mood today and am inclined to talk about it. But, I woke up in a really light place a couple of days ago and shied away from talking about it.

I think this might be some creeping cynicism: viewing positive emoting as phony and relaying the negative as real. That's not healthy.

Anyway, the positive from Monday was that it was the 15 year anniversary of moving to this place, settling into a loving relationship with an awesome person and starting a family. It all felt good, despite recalling the pain of leaving Montana and the community I had there.

Today, just gloomy and grumpy with no real cause I can pinpoint.

Doesn't the former seem like the more real and interesting bit to share?

@jdb I think they are both interesting, and sharing one without the other paints an incomplete picture.

@mdiehr Oh, right! That's true. I wish my inclination to share each were the same. I think I'm in a really good place about 75% of any given year. (Not bad, I think) I wonder if I voice the positive to negative at the right ratio.

@mdiehr @jdb I agree with Mark. Both are real, both interesting. In different ways and for various reasons, and yet both are also necessary.

Also: Congrats on the anniversary! And I hope the gloomy doesn't last too long.

@jdb I wouldn't overthink that. It's okay to share something just because you feel like you need it, rather than because it's “interesting” or whatever. If you need to vent, that's okay. If you need to find and share some positivity with other people, that's great. And don't worry, today's clouds will go away sooner than you think!

@jdb Hi jdb, I don't think this is necessarily cynical. Rather, I think we (humans) tend to reach out to others when we need support or reassurance. We don't tend to do that as much when we are happy or satisfied. I know that I personally tend to share my challenges, hoping that others may help steer me into a better place. I don't need that external support when everything is sunny and satisfying.
Just my two cents.

@Kent Sort of how we review a restaurant, I guess. More likely to post on Yelp if things went poorly than well.

If I could post a Yelp review on specific dates, May 31 gets two stars just for the crummy atmosphere.

@jdb I guess the only thing I can think of to say about my "two star" days is that mercifully, we move through them to better days. We can try not to look back over our shoulders to the dark days and look forward to the brighter ones. I hope you have a five star day tomorrow.