RT @neuro_gnostic@twitter.com What does going into nonverbal mode feel like to you? Is it that you cannot speak or you could if absolutely needed but it feels like it requires tremendous effort beyond what you have in you? #AskingAutistics
🐦🔗: https://twitter.com/neuro_gnostic/status/1000544415423848453
For me it's mostly just physically being almost impossible to speak, while in my head it can be either that I already know what to say (just can't), or I also can't produce any new thoughts and my head becomes empty or "loops" on smth like "what the hell should I say?"
@shoutcacophony
It's just that I had a few stressful situations in which I cried "for no reason" while people "pushed" their opinions on me and waited for my answer, so I had some experience <.<
It should've been a huge red flag about me being autistic, but who the hell knows what it's like to be one? >.<
@SunCat Oh, that too. Crying, yelling, delayed crying, delayed yelling. Being anxious before something happens, then the "something" happens. lol, sighs
I look at autism as a constellation of cognition and behavior, so there's definitely a "who knows what any of this is" aspect, for sure.
And that's the most superficial textbook/clinical definition, at that
@SunCat For me, I'm not sure there's much of a difference, tbh.
I did have a situation where I wanted to speak, but it was physicially difficult to do so, recently.
It could be more often than that one time, but I have no way of knowing, since I usually just don't say anything when I'm in that space, if possible