@Averly Take it easy. Life is full of surprises. Not all of them are good. Not all of them are bad.
I'm near 40 years old and so many strange things happened until now.
I've been very down lately. But I keep winning myself at every turn. Getting better, you know. Getting stronger. Sometimes we just need to turn off from the world and spend some time with our thoughts.
Growth is there. You just have to find it. 🙂