Oh for fuck's sake Moz. I'm the bloody Queen. Because I just called myself that. It must be true, because I just gave myself that title. What? The facts of my existence disprove it? Oh, how silly of me...
Seriously, birdsite, you pick today to suggest I follow David Silverman? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!
Y'all, I almost have my own batch of kombucha. There is no finishing flavor of sweet tea, and the sourness is just about right. Tomorrow, I think it'll be bottling with fruit day for it!
And as that came at the end of my last attempt to make things work in some way, shape, or form with my ex-husband, I can now say without a doubt that I was perfectly justified leaving him. I was miserable. That might be an understatement!
The only way to settle these arguments is to whip out a vacuette.
https://freethoughtblogs.com/pharyngula/2018/04/14/us-soy-boys-should-be-relieved/
I'm so very glad I'm not the same person I was 6 years ago. SO very glad. Getting my diary back from Open Diary opened my eyes pretty wide. WOW. I'm downright normal now.
There is a definite sour tang to my kombucha, but it finishes as sweet tea. So no, not there, yet. I need to get some ginger, lemons, sugar, blueberries, and someone convinced me that dried pineapple is worth it, too. I've been saving my bottles for a while, so I have them washed and ready to bottle once the flavor is right.
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Maybe the *pop* I felt a couple weeks ago was us moving back into the better alternate universe. This week has been so much better than it has been in years. In spite of the selfish/mean-spirited chatter that is prevalent around here.
Holy shit, Open Diary is back. This is one thing being in contact with my friend has given me. I know this won't impress many people here, since it's a lot different than most social network sites nowadays, but for me, that is where I felt at ease. It's been something like 8 years. And I missed it. I didn't realize until I went there and started posting again.
It's not easy to get a picture of kombucha. I noticed people on youtube had trouble showing the pellicle, too. But the scoby is clean, the pellicle is growing, the liquid is free of visible squigglies, no mold. My apartment is too warm for me today, so it'll probably grow really fast. The air inside the jar is reading just over 80. I'll taste test tomorrow to see how it's coming along.
On day 3 of my kombucha, the culture has bloomed seemingly out of nowhere. And I think it's long enough, and it was not contaminated with raw vinegar. So, in 2 days, I'll start taste-testing to see when I can add fruit and bottle it individually. Also, I can now tell when a company has cheated and added (usually distilled) vinegar and I feel like I've wasted a lot of money on fake crap. Like honey...
I'm glad I can say the things I need to say. I feel foolish for having panicked so badly last night, but since he is slowly on his way out, it feels just as painful.
Well, the post was about the preparations and watching him slowly fade away. He hasn't died, but he's in hospice care. He has some tech accessibility and messaged me back. He's not doing well, though. He wanted to reach out to me and try to tie up our loose end. But it'll sting forever. (I did really think he was my soulmate and it hurt when things got sour.)
So now I think maybe she died? If my response goes to filtered messages in the requests tab, I may not hear from him for a while, if ever. Gah, this sucks.
However, any mentions of her no longer link to any page. And there are vague references to a plot in a cemetery.
Everyone who gave me your kind words, I thank you. But holy fuck, I'm confused now. The urn posted under her name, with just the last name was posted to a group I'm in. But now I can't find it. So while at work, I panicked, thinking I'd been blocked, and I couldn't locate any of their pages. I got home, and noticed I had a message request from him on the 2nd. And he's posting regularly.
I've had to deal with grief that I could claim, but this is grief I have to keep private, since he picked someone else. And I don't know how to do this grief.
