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I'm now 37 years old. Birthday was Wed. Birthdays are always a bit melancholy. Too many dark thoughts of what might have been or what I should have done with my life. Still don't feel like a proper adult. Not sure I ever will.

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@sonicbooming happy birthday!

I've started seeing birthdays as a triumph.

@stoof @nelson Thank you both for your wishes. It wasn't anything special that day. I didn't tell anyone at work on Wed that it was my birthday because I was too deep into my own brain.

I struggle with some mental health, but I'm finding a way to keep on keeping on. Just hard sometimes when those dark thoughts creep in.

@sonicbooming I get it. 🙂

For those of us for whom keeping on is hard friggin' work, 37 is a triumph.

@sonicbooming

never my favorite day of the year, either, but a belated birthday 💚 all the same

@sonicbooming happy birthday! As someone from the far side of 45 I hate to say it but it doesn't get better. Enjoy the good things you have. Pursue happiness.

@sonicbooming There’s nothing more adult that not feeling like a proper adult.

...and happy birthday!

@sonicbooming Hi, replace 37 with 55 and this was me 3 weeks ago. It’s ok though - we all just do what we can until we run out of time.

@sonicbooming Ah, the melancholy of birthdays. They've always been a major source of Mortality Feels ever since the year we got up on my birthday to find my dad dead on the kitchen floor.

By complete and utter coincidence I don't celebrate my birthday any more...

@anthracite Damn. I won't pretend that I can relate to something like what you experienced. But yeah, birthdays can be a thing for so many people and not always a good one. Thank you for sharing with me though.