Paul ✨ @pts@octodon.social

@joshmillard I love this. Time to get out and push.

And I made a weird toy. https://demographics.glitch.me

I have returned, more powerful than ever.

I’m gonna be okay today. I did the dishes and I’m going to make a #novembeat and I’m going to do laundry. It’s going to be all right.

@joshmillard also your art continues to be Real Good 👍🏼✨

@joshmillard hey man it’s cool to see you on mastodon again

Me, I’m just sporadically sad here, so it’s nice to see some Actual Things

And here I am on Mastodon, because this is unconnected to my "real" life. Here I can sit with my grief. Here as I stare at approaching headlights of middle age and contemplate my failure as a partner and as a human I can generate "toots" and try to take my utter unraveling a little bit less seriously.

The longest, best, and most significant relationship of my adult life is ending, and I am horrified and heartbroken.

The fact that nobody knows me here is a virtue.

Maybe I will talk about a thing on Mastodon today. Why not.

Here is a selfie
https://octodon.social/media/254WZqkHFbFjueLe7BY

@PatrickKelly wait No......

STILL HERE, MOTHERFUCKERS

STILL HERE. I very badly need to make some art soon.

I am gonna keep my shit together!!! Yes!!!!!!!!!

Also I'm feeling real bad about myself today so working on this is a nice reminder that I've done Various Okay Things with my life.

I am making a "personal web site" for the first time in.a long time. Here is the work-in-progress: https://pts.glitch.me/

I like how it's shaping up but I want the copy to be less resume-ish.

@Mainebot Yeah, there other tools out there in various degrees of disrepair. My attempt uses Glitch to implement a node.js server that archives and re-hosts an LJ in its own little container.

The thing about getting my livejournal export dingus working is that it's given me a very vivid birds' eye view of my mental health over the past years.

I was Very Depressed for most of the last decade, it turns out. Huh.

Yo I'm still here.