If I see somebody praising or complimenting somebody else in a way that I want to be praised or complimented, I immediately feel both envy of the complimented person, and shame that I have not done whatever things I would have needed to do in order to earn the compliment or praise.

BUT THEN, when I AM complimented or praised, I immediately try to find ways why it doesn't actually count. And I am fucking GREAT at interrogating pleasures.