I need a name for the paralyzing anxiety deadlock which swallows days and weeks, which creeps in, taking over so insidiously that you aren't even particularly anxious at times, more just … waiting, killing time, because god knows you can't make yourself do/change anything anyway so you just wait, but then sometimes you realize how much older you've gotten while you've been waiting, and how we are all falling but not forever, and then mortal terror strikes.