Lily @lily@octodon.social

did a concert for school today. it was fun hanging out with my friends though it's torture seeing those two together

i don't want anyone else i want her but that won't happen now will it

there will *never* be someone as amazing as her, and even if there was i'd never meet them, i'd never be able to talk to them.

couple hours later and i'm still crying about this

i need a hug

she was like the only person i'm able to talk to irl and now i don't even have that anymore? i have nobody now

i just wanna cry in her embrace but nah now it would be too obvious

i want to tell her so much about what i'm going through but i can't because she's part of the problem

aaaaaah i should've acted sooner, maybe then i would've had even a tiny chance

i want to talk to her still but i feel like that right has been taken away from me

and just as i predicted, my heart is broken

i need to seek emancipation from the friends who make me do this

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for once i'm very not ready for the school year to end and idk what i'm going to do the entire summer

i just wanna cuddle with her and lay down with her and everything

aah i am sooooooo in love

don't mind me just had the most soul-crushing defeat of rainmaker ever. we had 8 left with the other team still at 99, and they went all the way during overtime. lost my rank due to that. great

somehow i lived... https://t.co/slEahxb2MY