Lily @lily@octodon.social

i'm still good friends with the both of them but it still kills me inside... i want to be happy for the two of them but...

did a concert for school today. it was fun hanging out with my friends though it's torture seeing those two together

@unascribed most definitely yes! it's probably my most played game on the switch

@SorrelGillespie i don't know anymore. everything's just kinda fuzzy and i can't focus on anything else and i just want to cry

i don't want anyone else i want her but that won't happen now will it

there will *never* be someone as amazing as her, and even if there was i'd never meet them, i'd never be able to talk to them.

couple hours later and i'm still crying about this

i need a hug

she was like the only person i'm able to talk to irl and now i don't even have that anymore? i have nobody now

i just wanna cry in her embrace but nah now it would be too obvious

i want to tell her so much about what i'm going through but i can't because she's part of the problem

aaaaaah i should've acted sooner, maybe then i would've had even a tiny chance

i want to talk to her still but i feel like that right has been taken away from me

@Dhveszak don't worry about me i'll get over it

and just as i predicted, my heart is broken

i need to seek emancipation from the friends who make me do this

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for once i'm very not ready for the school year to end and idk what i'm going to do the entire summer

i just wanna cuddle with her and lay down with her and everything