@kara I kinda hear you, on that last paragraph. I'm full time, and feel less dysphoria, to the point I feel imposter syndrome over my lack of dysphoria. You don't need dysphoria to be trans, but my brain needs someone to remind it.
And yet I hate the idea of quitting my HRT, and I want SRS. Those things matter to me medically and personally. It'd be rather strange to be a guy with a softer face, breasts, and a neovagina, but that's how much the physical aspect matters.