Thinking about learning sign language, because casually communicating without speech actually sounds neat as hell. Area trans woman gets around voice dysphoria with one weird trick.
@ikea_femme I've thought about this so many times, oh my gosh lmao
@tipsytentacle Yeah, I could do voice work, but it's hard and never really feels like it'd be easy for me. It's not like changing how you dress or walk, it feels like a difficult and stressful performance, while so much of transition has felt natural to me.
@ikea_femme None of this comes naturally to me outside of changing how I dress, but I guess maybe I am just a young trans^tm ( and former cross-dresser^tm) ?
@tipsytentacle personally, i didn't really cross dress before transition, but was always jealous of trans women. A part of me thought I didn't "get" to transition because I wasn't really trans. I hate to say, I think emotional intelligence from novel reading did more to help me realize I was trans than what I wore pre-transition. That's how I realized I was dissociating and detached from my feelings and body.
tl;dr: murakami made me a girl with his silly books about walls
@tipsytentacle But like, the second I tried female presentation (I grew up in a strict household and wasn't really comfortable expressing myself), it was electric. Like, I felt like I owned and inhabited my body for the first time since I was a kid. It wasn't just some crude interface between me and the world.
@ikea_femme body euphoria is a great feeling~!! (^_^)
But really, my crossdressing phase didn't last that long. Three months later, I realized I was trans and that was that (^_^;;)
I am nine months HRT now, by the way~!! <3 So hopefully I am not perceived as clumsy...
@tipsytentacle I'm at six months in a week. It's surreal how well it's worked for me, since I was thinking I was too late for good results at 27.
@ikea_femme That's great to hear~!!! I hope it continues to work well for you!! (^_^)
I feel like things have been terrible for me at 22, but that is probably due to living for the majority of HRT at home with my transphobic parents. (':