IKEA Femme ⚧ 🏳️‍🌈 @ikea_femme@octodon.social

#introductions I'm a #trans woman

With the same name on #MetaFilter

I'm bi. I love photography and Philip K Dick.

I'm a software engineer in #Boston

After getting sirred multiple times on purpose by a stranger, after months of passing just fine, I decided to schedule a FFS consult.

I'm so fucking mad that this is the solution. And I hate that I have to deal with these jerks. Nobody could tell in the burbs, nobody cared in NYC.

And I don't want it for me. I want to fit in. And I'm fucking scared of the pain and risks. I'll risk my dick for a vagina, but I'm scared to risk my face for one society prefers.

What's currently the good instance for an active timeline with trans women at varying stages of transition? I used witches.town for that, and kinda miss it, and in the shutdown of that, I saw a lot of new ones come online.

I want to get more into poetry. Who should I be reading? Prosewise, I really like Haruki Murkami and Philip K Dick, if that informs what kind of theme and "voice" I'm into.

Wondering if lasting happiness is a real and sustainable thing, or a thing that's possible for someone like me.

I've felt guilty for not enjoying my life as much as I should, especially as a child. It's both liberating and sobering to consider the possibility it might just not be a reasonable goal.

I do experience joy. I never really have major difficulties with depression. But I'm so baseline, even when my life is objectively good.

I can't tell if I'm losing weight, muscle, or boob, or if it's losing elasticity, but my favorite bra is loose. Not really looking forward to buying a new one in Boston. It's gonna be expensive, and I'm going to be visibly trans compared to going to ex-urban malls.

I just recorded my voice. It's remarkably bad. I sounded better after pitching in, but I can't always do that.

I'm seeing a speech pathologist in a week. I really hope it goes well. But I have some uncomfortable speech therapy memories. My mom used some aggressive early intervention autism tactics and acted like I could never speak well enough.

I just wish they gave a moment to have thantos explain how population growth being exponential and extraction of resources being generally linear barring technological innovation would fit in his plan.

I mean, is he thinking we'll starve ourselves out of Green Revolution 2.0?

I'm upset nobody else makes this nitpick in glib reviews of that movie.

Whew, got out from Infinity War to find out insurance doesn't wanna pay for injections and a creepy chaser text on my phone. And the movie wasn't as good as I hoped it'd be!

See? I can't wear pants without them riding up on my calves.

https://octodon.social/media/X2rl-kXWSbIqdPEKKbk

Up to 7 mile runs again! I'll be back to my pre spiro numbers soon enough, and they'll mean even more this time.

Otoh, ripped gams.

http://horse.horse/ it's FOR SALE

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