Em @elsilnora@octodon.social

Okay now that I've settled myself down and taken my estrogen I'm gonna move back a few steps, I wonder what was up with the rug?

My passport is fine, Otto is sitting on my lap now. "You're WEIRD" he said to me. "I'll sit here with you on your lap to be friends but I could go somewhere else AT ANY TIME" https://octodon.social/media/PaOxjVIUarhlPe8IkKw

It was just they sent it back, along with the original of my gender marker change authorization from my doctor

I sank down to the kitchen floor on the verge of tears. The rug is gone, where did the rug go? I grabbed the cat and he didn't like it, I just sat on the bare kitchen floor clutching the cat

He just came in because he wanted treats, I gave him a handful of treats and then crammed pickles and salsa fresca in my mouth

Oh my god, oh my god I just spent thirty seconds almost freaking myself out of my mind

I got another scary government envelope that said it was from the passport office. Oh my god what is this I said, what do they want. They're going to tell me the rules changed or there's been a mistake, they're taking my passport back. I kept saying oh my god out loud

I dropped all my groceries and ripped the envelope in half to get in and it was just my old expired passport.

My mom is very supportive and I am so amazingly eternally grateful and I love her but she is gonna ride the deadname train to the last stop on the line and not get off till they turn off the lights

Well now I'm just drinking pinot grigio and watching Revolutionary Girl Utena, maybe this time I'll finally make it through the whole thing.

I initially meant Utena, but also: the bottle of wine

So I'm nowhere near at a stage in my transition yet where I'm confident giving pickle tips, but if I were I'd say spicy & garlic dill from the farmer's market is the way to go

Yes hello my name is Emily, I'd like to register a complaint about bog-standard gender essentialist microaggressions. Yes I'll hold

I apologize for in the past referring to They Might Be Giants as "nerd music that I hate," actually their music is for everyone and I now like them, they're really very good

Yessss thanks to Nintendo Labo people are gonna be big into cardboard in general now, I am sitting next to a pile of paper gold, $25 each please

https://octodon.social/media/yjxKN6rRx9QlqOOyWGQ

But no it was just my entire new passport, the photo was acceptable and now it just says F under Sex because I GOT MY CORRECTED GENDER MARKER AND IT'S AWESOME

So I got home last night and there's a frightening looking priority mail envelope with a return address that just says "U.S. Government Official Mail." Thankfully it was just my new passport!

I hadn't expected it so early because I assumed they'd send back the photo for not meeting some obscure guideline, or they'd request more paperwork since I was CHANGING MY GENDER MARKER.

I was gonna go out tonight to a local trans meetup group I haven't been to since October but instead I'm gonna sit inside and play Chrono Trigger and eat pork fried rice because I have a headache and I'm hungry and tired and it's cold and there are wolves after me

It felt like my arm would never be warm again until I'm taken to the Undying Lands of Aman in the Uttermost West. Like in that Annie Lennox song? Anyway this was the other day, my arm is fine now, see ya'll later.

It's so cold Michelle came inside and touched my bare arm, and the chill of her hand from the cold was physically painful, it felt like I'm Frodo stabbed by that dead knife

Which sucks because it's close enough that I can walk to pick up a pizza, even in this miserable sub-freezing cold

Can I tell you all how much I hate that the local pizza place just asks for my number when I call, and then uses some kind of caller ID to put a name on the order? Because I haaaaaaaaaate that for 1000 reasons

It tries for authenticity in filming a vampire but I doubt it would work like that IRL, I am 100% sure vampires wouldn't appear on film

It's got the guy from Murder on the Orient Express, it's got the evil bird from Scooby Doo, it's got Charlie Chaplin and the guy who got shot for being mistaken for Charlie Chaplin from The Cat's Meow, it's got that one guy from Being John Malkovich...

Here's what we're watching tonight

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