Em @elsilnora@octodon.social

I played F-Zero for a while before it made me nostalgic and I started crying, somebody please send help.

I know I said that earlier about finding that action figure but I need a lot of help these days, thanks in advance

Ugh so Target unexpectedly had a bunch of these in stock so I made what was probably a bad impulse decision...

https://octodon.social/media/6bycTbRkf1gf-c5zeuM

I tried that one place and the other place but not under the thing! I'll have to remember to check there later after I move whatever out of the way!

I have a big problem: I cannot for the life of me figure out where my action figure of Arwen Undómiel is. Everyone please send assistance at your earliest convenience, thank you

But the other thing that soothes me is this Chinese takeout and pink moscato

Literally everyone at work is convinced I'm in my early twenties and it always seems to BLOW THEIR MINDS when I tell them they're off by ten years.

It soothes me to think about that this evening, when the lady at the wine & spirits shop didn't card me...

I know I've mentioned this before, but years ago I attended a presentation at work on the SMART technique, where I was taught to make goals:

Specific
Measurable
Achievable
Ra's al Ghul
Tyrannosaurus

Now somewhere in there I stopped paying attention but I forget where exactly and I don't care.

Okay so actually I'm waiting at the doctor's office to get my levels checked, because as of yesterday, I'm three months on HRT? And it's kind of a big deal?

Also I'm very tired.

Don't cry on the train, Emily, generally speaking for most of your life it's been very easy to just not suddenly cry on a train for no reason.

Typing this out and posting it is what kept me from crying! Hahaha we have fun, we have fun

I mean I'd be okay with him perpetually thinking Robert was my deadname, and I changed it when I came out? Either way it's not my name, like there are a lot of names that aren't mine, add it to the pile

One of my coworkers I don't see very often calls me "Robert", which is not my deadname, or anything remotely similar to my deadname, like it's not even the same ballpark

I've considered correcting him but I've put it off so long it seems awkward, plus I'm always like... why bother, you know? I'm just gonna make him change it to Emily pretty soon when I come out at work, may as well take care of it all at once

Everything went great, we are going home but now I am very drunk, so I'm super into the conversation!

(to clarify again, I am drunk but not my parents who are driving)

@MissSnarkerson Ha, thanks! And I 100% shouldn't complain and feel kind of bad that I have. I really am so thankful for their support. But we have waaay different methods of communicating

I'm going to dinner to come out to my aunt and uncle tonight, so my parents (my uncle is mom's brother) are coming for support, but I made the biggest mistake of my life and decided to go over their place and carpool.

Between talking about presidential politics and how we need to prepare for the EMPs, I am now hunched over in the back seat listening to Green Day like a fifteen year old girl.

Podcasts and Blur aren't loud enough.

And then sometimes I have dreams I'm being chased by the cops and I hide behind a giant marble statue of Chelsea Manning and I wake up and say out loud, do I know too much about myself?

I don't even REMEMBER my friend's bad opinions about Pretzel Crisps while I'm eating an entire bag of Pretzel Crisps, that's how little his opinions about Pretzel Crisps matters to me!

That last one feels like a PRETTY BIG DEAL. I had a conversation with my other friend about it, and that reminded me that my #1 recurring nightmare is I get lost in a crowded public restroom that's huge and shaped a little funny

Things I already have accomplished in only the first month of 2018:
- Came out to and spent time in girl mode with many of my close friends
- Started coming out to a handful of supportive people at work
- Applied for and received my passport with my correct gender marker
- Used a public ladies' room for the first time and even had to like wait in line inside for a stall, which was TERRIFYING, but my awesome friend went with me and made sure I was okay

We're all in agreement that the primary use case scenario for keeping the joycons detatched from the Switch or the grip is so you can play video games while you have a cat on your lap, right?

Which I also use for most video game characters I have to name, like my Dragonborn in Skyrim, or when I have to title my save file in Castlevania