#introduction #2. Super real facts!
I am 35 and consider myself a working class academic, bisexual (or pan if you like), bigender, a nerd with (almost) no programming skills, a Gryffelclaw, a christian and a cat person. 2 longterm relationships (5/10 years) + 1 amazing roommate. Depression issues, Hypersensitivity, usually a bit tense.
I used to blog about sex, but haven't due to a burnout situation. I love analyzing people, DIY, especially building stuff, good bourbon and Hannah Gadsby.
Reflection on depression
Sometimes I find it weird that depression is labeled as an illness. I think it's more like an adequate response to conditions we live in, alienated from each other, unable to really create our lives and the conditions we live in.
I mean sure I'm sick, but it's more like I'm being poisoned and unable to get to a less poisonous place, so I need to develop strategies to digest the poison better, but it sucks. I'd rather work on not poisoning everyone in the first place.
Probably going to cut my hair short again
I think I made the decision yesterday and I was properly excited about it. It suddenly occurred to me that the idea of having long hair was much better than the actual experience. Also I thought I would be a different person with long hair ;)
So now I'm in kind of a consolidation phase. Making sure that is really what I want to do. Enjoying my last days with long(er) hair. This might take a while.
Should I cut my hair short again?
I think short hair looks better on me.
Long hair feels nice.
But it's also always in the way so so I always put it up anyway.
But then it's really out of the way, whereas short hair always touches my forehead or my neck which is annoying. (shaving my head is not an option).
Guess there is no clear answer.
At the moment I feel vulnerable so looks seem more important :/
It was Stephen West night again! He wore rainbow camouflage pants and had lavender flowers in his face instead of glitter and a fake piercing and I was so smitten with him ☺️
Also there was a little holiday home that we shared in shifts with a family with kids and I invited some friends over but spectacularly failed to offer them drinks or anything. Next to it was a triangular house with a glass top that was turning. And we played basketball, with a ball, later a stone in a cup.
So. Jetzt hab ich mal die ganze Recherche zum Thema Aussterben der Menschheit und Klimakrise zusammen gefasst: https://keimform.de/2019/droht-das-aussterben-der-menschheit-durch-die-klimakrise/
Weird dreams (2), child birth
hill over the castle.
Also comfortingly, my parents came to pick us up. I was still trying to get our luggage back that had remained on the wrong train. Later I birthed a very fast growing child that was a four year old in a day and couldn't control their strength yet which made us a little unpopular with our hosts. Then another child changed forme into a huge turtle and jumped in the sea to fight a huge spider, which was like a real life video game.
Weird dreams (1), travel, anxiety
Good morning! Dream journal: I traveled the dream versions of real places all around the world and ate delicious things, but when I tried to go on a trip with friends everything went wrong, paths and people disappeared and we got stranded in the rain at night without shelter or our luggage but my travel companion still thought I overreacted when I freaked out. Then I made friends with a little girl living alone and her dog and we went on a flying train up the
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