Note to self:
No-one cares.
(Deletes comments out of existential embarrassment)
And then you just want to delete your history from the universe. Maybe start over.
Srsly though. Half the time I'm worried I don't make a difference. The other half I'm worried I do.
@Nafrondel Why are you worried you do?
@Nafrondel Well, you definitely have an effect on the people you talk to, the world you live off, and almost anything you come in contact with. I'm not sure what lofty way you've defined meaning, but I'd say those effects probably have meaning to someone else.
You don't have to change the whole world, but I'm sure you've probably at least made some progress on making those interactions good ones.
What else are you looking for?
@brwarner 💖🌟🙆
Thanks for the kind words.
I guess what I'm really looking for is to feel I'm not wasting my life away.
I've multiple disabilities and I know I have unrealistic expectations for myself. But it's still frustrating and isolating.
@brwarner I think the worry is that if my actions matter, inaction or the wrong action has meaning.
Though also that the feeling might be narcissism.