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I sometimes wonder if I'll go the same way Robin Williams did: fighting for ages against his terrible depression, only to eventually lose the fight despite his best efforts.
This is a lifelong ordeal...and in some moments--especially in moments like tonight--I fear I won't make it...
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@ayachan
It's really helped me rationalize and understand my ideation as something happening on a scale like that
Like its really hard for me to decribe how hard last year was where I stumbled past at least 5 new 10s where in the previous year had maybe 1.
The past two days have hit me hard like at an 8 where I haven't ideated in a while because I kinda had logical floodgates up that failed.
'lets see how I feel tomorrow' probably kept me from doing anything rash, aside from my own hastily made floodgates