Sen gave me a reprieve ^v^ I don't have just one chance to get this right. it's okay to fuck it up and she won't yank back front from me

she feels harried by running the life and wants rid of those responsibilities. my strong need for control means I very much want them. it just makes sense that she'd hand them off to me, in the end. and even if I fuck it up that's probably how things will sort out.

whew. okay. feeling calmer. I get to have this and I don't need to be perfect.