I don't want to deal with this adult stuff. I really just want life to go on and things to be easy for a couple years.

Jacques labs are normal which is not great news. It's not thyroid. Could be cancer. He's got a heart murmur. So. I don't know. I'm having a really difficult time dealing with this. I'm at work.

How do Biden and Fauci have so much energy. I can barely get myself out of bed. Is it because I'm depressed? Have I been depressed forever? How do I fix it? Should I get ECT?

Hey youse. I love you. Just wanted to let you know. Today sucked and a lot of you came out and had nice things to say and offered possible future support if things go in a bad direction with Jacques. It means a lot.

I just want a peaceful existence. I don't want to worry about money. That's not too much to ask.

I cried tonight and gave myself a migraine. I don't like it.

And there's all these people out there with jobs that are so esoteric, man. Just completely intangible. And they make at least 4x what I make, and it's like... I'm so absolutely depressed that I'm not worth paying. But all these Netflix computer guys are.

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You know what I enjoy? If this turns out to be hyperthyroidism, I won't have enough money to treat Jacques. I love that my ability to keep my cat healthy is based on my job which is essential to the healthcare industry which really pays me barely over minimum.

Not great news about Jacques. Might not be his teeth. $190 in just blood work. We're getting antibiotics, too. But he's got wheezing and a possible heart murmur. I'm gonna have to Xanax tonight.

Like, they're all politicians. They're all terrible. Every last one. But at some point you have to just... Accept that and work with what we have. I cannot stay in a state of misery about the government forever because it isn't perfect.

You can be both unhappy and happy about a thing. I learned that in DBT.

I need a vacation. But I have cats, I can't Go On Vacation.

I stood next to / over Jacques for 15 minutes as he slowly ate wet food and he ate a really decent amount. The vet is booked until the end of March unless I get lucky and get into one of their emergency appointments. Might have to go to a different vet and I don't want to.

OK so, what's our verdict on Depp at this point.

I'm still boggled that Alexei Navalny actually just... Went back to Russia.

Good evening. I feel like hot garbage. It's definitely not vaccine related. I've just been sleeping like shit for a couple weeks and it's catching up to me. This is why Xanax is bad, kids.

Lord, one of the gatcha games I've been enjoying on mobile is nearly 4 GIGS of space. I am wanting to run it on my tablet but it doesn't have a ton of room. Jesus. There's no way I'll be able to do this and Shin Megami Tensei Dx2 on it.

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