@Samizdata @sungo err *she is the kind

@Elizafox @Samizdata My parents were total shits about my psych care as a kid. I got the religious "jesus is testing you" shit. In the years since, things have changed. Or at least it seems so to me. They're at least good at making sure I'm still alive.

@sungo @Elizafox My dad and stepmom are REALLY awesome about keeping tabs on me. Especially as I wouldn't have been tooting today had she not come by when my job couldn't reach me to come in early...

@Samizdata @sungo I've had close calls with suicide but luckily my attempts either failed, I got seen and aborted, or I chickened out.

@Elizafox @sungo One the stepmother caught me with after an OD, the other was due to insufficiently sharpened tools.

@Samizdata @sungo Insufficiently sharp tools are one reason my cutting never killed me.

@sungo @Samizdata It's sad too. Cutters have huge stigma as attention seekers. In my case though, it was part coping, and part "GOD DAMMIT FUCKING HELP ME YOU ASSHOLE PLEASE".

@Samizdata @sungo Like someone on fire trying to make themselves as visible as possible so someone will come help. Except no one came to help. I had to learn to stop cutting on my own.