@Elizafox @sungo One the stepmother caught me with after an OD, the other was due to insufficiently sharpened tools.

@Samizdata @sungo Insufficiently sharp tools are one reason my cutting never killed me.

@sungo @Samizdata It's sad too. Cutters have huge stigma as attention seekers. In my case though, it was part coping, and part "GOD DAMMIT FUCKING HELP ME YOU ASSHOLE PLEASE".

@Samizdata @sungo Like someone on fire trying to make themselves as visible as possible so someone will come help. Except no one came to help. I had to learn to stop cutting on my own.

@sungo @Samizdata I wish more people would take self-harm seriously.

@Elizafox @sungo Agreed, but there are those people that abuse it for non-therapeutic attention.

@Elizafox @Samizdata I never told a soul. Well, not until the only therapist I ever trusted caught me wincing at some physical movement.

@sungo @Elizafox I told my family about the cutting attempt during an argument with them a couple of days after the attempt.

@sungo @Samizdata I told people and got ignored. So I began to hide it. And I hid it further. And people thought I got better. I really didn't.

@Elizafox @sungo I coldbloodedly planned my OD attempt for two months before I did it, and NO ONE had a clue. My stepmother asked me when I woke up in ICU if I thought i had had a stroke.

@Samizdata @sungo I had limited OD opportunities. All I could OD on was common OTC meds, and I wasn't stupid enough to OD on Tylenol given the horrendous death from liver failure that would follow.

@Elizafox @sungo Mine was script opiates. I refuse to have them in the house any more, despite some of the positives, just to keep out of the way of temptation.

@Samizdata @Elizafox My unintentional OD was prescription xanax. Huge panic attack hit and I thought "well, if one works on a normal panic attack then clearly I need ALL THE XANAX". It's too bad too. I miss xanax.

@Samizdata @sungo I've only had opiate painkillers twice. Codeine and vicodin. The latter I wasn't stupid enough to OD on. The former I was doing slightly better and didn't think to try to kill myself before I finished the prescription. Probably for the better.

@Samizdata @Elizafox The thing is with me, I have always suffered alone. Pretty much every partner I've ever had has left when things got bad. The docs say I shouldn't live alone beacuse of things like that OD. But since no one's willing to put up with my shit, I get to live alone.

@sungo @Elizafox Yeah, I know that one. Luckily a few of the exs and I are still friends.