@sungo I have PTSD and MDD with occasional psychotic features. I don't know how anyone puts up with me at all.
I'm told I'm a really wonderful person to be around between episodes of depression. I guess it must be true because I hear it enough, but I have a hard time believing it.
I only sought help for it all after my partner told me to see a therapist. I only got medication when I got a sympathetic doctor who told me I should do it. Best decision I ever made.
@sungo I don't get hypomanic (so it's not dysmythia or bipolar). I just get moments where I'm /less/ depressed. It's the moments when it flares up I become horrible because I take everything personally. I try to avoid people when that happens and it causes me to become severely withdrawn. Ironically, I become more productive in things like programming because I'm trying to hide from others so they don't see me like that, and because I believe they hate me anyway.
Don't get depression.
@Elizafox Yeah, depression is kinda the worst. I remember asking a doc to not give me meds to squish any hypomania because that's the only time I felt ok.
Even with meds, I'm unstable and borderline comes with identity crisis too. I'm always trying to figure out who I am, if this emotion is real, what it says about me. If grumpy sysadmin wasn't a thing, I doubt I'd be able to hold down a job for long.
@Samizdata @Elizafox Lithium is how I got married. It kicked my depression but put me in a hypomanic state for about a year. Not enough that my inattentive doc spotted it of course but enough that I was super happy all the time and making terrible life choices.
@Samizdata @Elizafox I've heard that a lot about lithium. That and emotional lock-in