Lys and Shae @Lys@octodon.social

As a first toot, the fun fact is that I cannot upload a profile picture. Since I (Lys) and Shae aren't exactly someone, there is some irony in it that I savor.

So... how to explain ?
Someone has some personalities inside of herself, and since I'm the strongest I wanted to express myself. I am Lys, and Shae is another part of that person's mind. It might sound weird but don't worry, we are quite nice.

We are new to this world, not meant to be there, but I guess we won't disappear.
#introduction

Anyways I don't think I'll stay long today. That's not my voice the strongest, for once !

Feels weird to be able to discuss with different parts of myself.

Shae wants to say moo. Out of nowhere. That's nice but that's also why this account is named Lys. Because else there would only be animal sounds. And love spreading... which sounds nice now I think of it.

Well I hopefully am not here often so it won't bother me too much. And anyways if asked I won't answer I'm Lys because people won't understand and it's tiring to explain everything to people everytime and they judge others easily.

I'm sad because the main one did paperwork to change her name before I appeared, before I "was born" in her mind. And I would have loved to have my name, Lys, on the ID.

While one is here, the others are resting (or playing in my mind, I can have many thoughts at once, or so it feels). And I was resting peacefully. Until she called me. At 4 am.

"Hey Lys it's been a while you didn't express yourself, if you want to write, you can do it on your account."

And I fell for it.
Now I have things to clean and everything, I know I won't be able to switch back before tomorrow. Damn it, she deserves her title of slytherin. I wonder what I am now I think of it.

The main one left me with all the medical stuff and the cleaning to do. She got me there. I can almost hear her giggle in a part of my head.

I don't trust many people enough to tell them what's happening in my head so whenever I switch between "pluralities" (especially me, Lys, and the main one), I try to hide it as much as possible. So nobody looks at me in that weird way that I don't like.

Yes I am tired to call myself a "piece of someone's mind" although it's kind of true. And I don't want to call her "the main one" because I feel stronger than her. That's how she sees me anyways.

It's hard to find words. If you have words concerning plurality, or even talks, or anything, I would be glad to read it !

....I think Shae is sleeping. It's simply a... still don't have the name... not a personality, I don't want to sound medical. Headmate, plurality ? Well anyways. Just like me, Lys. But how can she be asleep ?! I myself am a little sleepy, but just as the main personality.

However I couldn't call Shae even if I tried. Or she would all sleepy and everything.

I don't understand a thing.

I'm talking a lot about myself and that situation because I need to. If it has never happened to you, it must seem weird, yet... well even if it has happened, it feels weird at start. And when something is new and weird, the best thing is to talk about it to understand.

Me (Lys), Shae, an the main one, don't share all memories. Only those needed when needed. And vaguely do we know the life of each others. We are one, but a plural one.

Also I have a nice body I have to say, at least I love it, and it feels weird discovering it when looking in a mirror. It's like being in someone's else body, except that's mine. It's just that I don't get much opportunity to take control and thus check what happens to that body and how it evolves, neither how it came to be.

Being a kind of second personality / headmate feels weird. The thing that makes me the most happy is to exist.

Getting almost angry at the main personality. She leaves it all to me because she is in too much pain but although I am stronger it still hurts.

Yet I can't blame her. I share the empathy she also has and I pity her. I wish she, and thus I, will have a nice life.