Lexi @Lexi@octodon.social

It isn't your enemy, even though it can sometimes seem that way. Pain doesn't feel good, but it has a purpose, and anxiety is the same. I've found that acknowledging it and hearing it out, even if you ultimately disagree with it, works better than fighting it. Sometimes I even learn something useful in the process.

I have a motto that I try to live by. Over the last year it's been hard to put it into practice, but I'm finally starting to feel like my old self again, so I've been thinking about it.

"It's better to be an optimist who turns out to be wrong sometimes, than a pessimist who turns out to be right sometimes."

I've come to realize that I'm probably using these words a bit wrong (there's a difference between a pessimist and a fatalist, for instance), but I'll try to explain anyway.

"101 Facts About New Zealand" https://youtu.be/h6TbFpWYPv0

The Philosophy of Antifa | Philosophy Tube https://youtu.be/bgwS_FMZ3nQ

Trump & the Problem with Politics | Philosophy Tube https://youtu.be/0BcsKdvERZA

Decrypting the Alt-Right: How to Recognize a F@scist | ContraPoints https://youtu.be/Sx4BVGPkdzk

Does the Left Hate Free Speech? (Part 1) | ContraPoints https://youtu.be/GGTDhutW_us

Does the Left Hate Free Speech? (Part 2) | ContraPoints https://youtu.be/IBUuBd5VRbY

Everything by Shaun: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJ6o36XL0CpYb6U5dNBiXHQ

Hi, I'm Lexi! I'm a geeky nerd who's tired of the birdsite and its hate. Sorry for being a social media immigrant~

More about me:

🔹 I like cartoons and comic books. Also anime and manga, but I don't dispute that they're the same thing.
🔹 I like fantasy and science fiction. Star Wars is okay, but I prefer Star Trek.
🔹 Video games are neat, but I sorta grew out of them. Still like retro games!
🔹 Very pro-free speech, but even more pro-anti-harassment.

Back is _still_ soooore. It's a pain that goes right to my teeth.

Eating Easter M&M's in March because I don't give a hoot!

I don't think I handled the negative feelings _too_ poorly today, but now's definitely a good time for me to think about how to handle future bouts with depression better. I can't seem to come up with anything off the top of my head, though, so I'm open to suggestions! I mean, I could write little notes to myself reminding me to follow my own advice, but knowing how depression works, I'd probably just avoid reading them?

I fall for this a lot, honestly. I talk a good game when I'm feeling good, but I'm still at risk of sinking into hopelessness when things get bad. And even if I do think about it beforehand, almost every new instance of depression makes me think: “Oh, this depression is different. _This one_ is forever for sure.”

It's such a pain in the butt.

And unfortunately, that's not true either. Depression likely will come again. And if you don't prepare for it in advance, when you're feeling good, then it's going to get you all over again, because it's impossible to take the necessary steps once you're depressed!

But it took me a long time to realize is that there's another trap you can fall into: once you make it through depression, you can mistakenly think to yourself: “Well, I got through it, and now I can look back and see how wrong I was for thinking I would be depressed forever. Now I'll never be depressed or fall for that hopelessness trap again!”