I was making a YouTube Poop about a year ago but I never finished it.
Here's the little of what was finished
i dont feel like doing much of anything anymore
another day of my friends ignoring me like always
only one (1) person even returned a message to me
cant seem to connect with people that well online or offline
didnt go well the last time i tried to make friends with someone
im having more people i considered my friends shuttering their accts now
maybe theyre trying to get away from me
no one fucking cares
it's almost 3am
i know no one is seeing this right now because fedi has a userbase of -5 people now
my irl friends rarely talk to me anymore
one hasn't returned me a message in nearly a month even though ive been trying to talk to them every day
just sort of expecting one of these days to try to send a message to most of them and getting a "message not sent, not in friends list" message on discord because i don't think most people want me around anymore
i get annoyed when i see people younger than me who are very skilled at something because it reminds me about how I basically squandered my life up to now. even then im mad at people my age who seem to have their entire life planned out because I can't even fucking figure out what to even do most the time. im not wealthy or competent enough to go to college or even pick a subject im slightly interested in.
Pshaw. Turing machines are so inefficient! Just copy a cell that implements Conway's Life.
Block rec, mention of antisemitic hate
A user on collapsitarian.io just replied "gas the jews" to me
Use that information however you see fit
That instance was suspended from scholar, though
Black Autistic Trans fundraiser—cw: abuse
We are getting there, and I want to say that to everyone who has given $ to this fundraiser for my friend, it’s a person’s survival and healing from multiple levels of harm that you are funding. Please keep boosting.
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funds will be used for housing, food, T, therapy
give them their flowers.
venmo @TaiCK payPal.me/CranioWithTai
I will redistribute to them to protect their privacy/safety