FadingAway👻 @FadingAway@octodon.social

I'm the kind of person who can skate the fine line between depression and asking the universe to heap more misery upon them.

A friend of mine (who happens to be gay) was trying to cheer me up. He said, "In a year or so, you'll be able to walk down the street with the one you love, holding hands." His point was that I should be happy because I'm straight and can openly express my affection to my significant other, but it just made me feel more depressed about HIS situation here in China. =/

Another bad thing about living in China.. I rarely get an email notification from my Fitbit telling me the battery is low because I'm registered on Fitbit using my Facebook account. Stupid #GreatFirewall

Just found out at breakfast this morning that my wife went a little crazy yesterday and confronted my friend J (and my boss) in her office yesterday at my school. That's why J had to delete all contacts with me. Just one more reason I know I'm doing the right thing by divorcing her and seeking custody of our son. He needs stability, not a psycho-mom.

I suppose I had better go to the police station today and register my new address. I should have done it about 55 days ago. Oops.

I'm watching The Girl With All the Gifts, and I did not expect THAT!

Due to the ever-present threat of my psycho-wife accusing me of having an affair, my dear friend J had to delete all connections to me on her phone and sent me the message that she doesn't like and has never liked me. It just made me feel sick that it's come to this.

In class this afternoon, one of my students was attempting to watch a movie on a little media player. After I confiscated it, he got out a magazine. While confiscating that, I saw his iPhone up his sleeve, so I took that too. When I gave him a chance to give just one reason I shouldn't hand his contraband over to his teacher, he was silent. I guess he didn't believe I would. #teachingmoment

Day 60: I saw my friend J in the cafeteria this morning, but I can't have any contact with her for fear of giving my wife evidence of my non-existent affair before my divorce litigation begins.

I'm finally listening to S Town. Riveting.

I can't wait until my son is old enough for me to read more advanced books at night before bed.

My boss forgave me for the very negative things I texted her about helping my wife. Along with my contrite apology, the 200 yuan of flowers I gave her didn't hurt.

I'm not quite "get off my lawn" old, but I am too old to understand the whole animal face filtered selfie craze/fad among my former students on Instagram. 🐶 🐰 🙀

Day 58: After talking with a lawyer this afternoon, I'm finally beginning to feel like there is definitely going to be a light at the end of this long dark maddening tunnel. #divorce

Lawyer retained (unofficially).

I just sent a long email to perhaps the only English speaking lawyer in Changsha, asking him to meet me for a consultation regarding my now certain divorce litigation against my wife. Hopefully, he won't charge me a fortune and it will stimulate my wife to finally agree to a settlement agreement.

Beans, beans, the magical fruit
The more you eat, the more you post on Mastodon instances.

I'm living in a state of near-perpetual anger. =/ I don't like this version of me, and there seems no end to my wife's madness. A litigated divorce will likely take 2 years, and my wife won't sign a settlement agreement. I'm about to break, either from reality or into a million pieces.

As a big consumer or sugar in my coffee, this story is a little scary: http://www.futurity.org/soda-brain-1408922/

Shit! Today is Earth Day, and I didn't get the planet anything again this year. I suck.