hey nearly 1500 followers and people don't automatically follow-back, i'm disappointed.
help me i'm the ego of a famous actor stuck with an anxious lazy foss dev anarchist stoner
and my neighbors apparently discovered gabber. fuck
interestingly, i need people to love me because i don't, and somehow the answer is shitposting and being cute and getting high on public toots.
that right there is only because I both want attention and can't find a proper psychologist so I just tell you all and fail: i'm still broken and lonely, even when functional and far from alone
@woozle I have friends and people who love me but it's not fulfilling and never feels enough, i always feel alone and unloved
Do you feel like you really connect with them?
@CobaltVelvet well, this solves none of your problems but ... I think you're cool. 🤓❤️
@CobaltVelvet I can discuss with you a while. You came to see me, your psychologist for which reason?
@c2c hello i'm dead inside and survive by getting high all the time and grabbing attention
how fucked am i
@CobaltVelvet how fucked are you? You are not.
You are not dead inside. You feel dead inside. My heart is with you. I can kind of understand because I was very low during five years and eventually escape.
Speaking to a random stranger is a start. Do you speak to a real therapist?
@c2c no i don't, i'm too scared of going out and seeing people
@CobaltVelvet being scared is a legitimate reason to stay inside. Do you speak literally or do you go outside to survive? There is phone lines for people needing help. If you want we can design a devil plan together to start helping you and eventually reach a professional. I have the great design if it. It consists of super baby step.
@c2c it's not that severe but i do have a lot of anxiety. I've been trying to call an endocrinologist for half a year but too scared to open the phone app
@CobaltVelvet anxiety was the core of my problems.Good news I eventually escaped. Hard news is that it take me quite a long. Good news is that I know now some pitfall to avoid and good recipes that I can share with you. I can list all recipes and pitfall in one long thread or explain them as a dialog, as you want. To start, do you did ever already know some kind of relaxation technique ?
@CobaltVelvet
That sounds like something I could have written... >.>
<idly wonders which definition of "alone" is in play here>