Aicaya ⚧ @Aicaya@octodon.social

By-the-by, I'd post more frequently but I'm limited by my phone's data (using a restaurant's wifi 'cause I'm not broke today). Still in the middle of a blackout over here (month six and still no signs of electricity).

Something sketchy and not nude this time. #art #mastoart #sketch

Tip jar: https://ko-fi.com/aicaya

https://octodon.social/media/U_g3FiC_B77XVOsRaQI

...Well, that's demoralizing. Was kinda proud of that last pic. Oh well.

I'm stuck at home, send help. (cw: nudity)

If you like, tips are nice:
https://ko-fi.com/aicaya

#art #mastoart #homestuck

https://octodon.social/media/mKX9i0xV9m0v4c4hdm8

This is the closest thing to shitposting that you will ever see from me.

https://octodon.social/media/dAYSRSHB4zVdvRbyOMw

Also hi, this is (part of) why I haven't tooted in a while.

How do you deal with a family member who wages wars with other members and is generally antagonistic to the point where cutting off contact is the smart option, but is also dealing with suicidal levels of depression and is also your mother?

Seriously, I had to cut contact with her but now she's in danger of killing herself. What do?

Anyway, pardon the toot barrage, but getting these off my chest both helps clear my head and get my thoughts in order.

Meanwhile I can't get a job, there's so many police on strike that crime's risen to the point where I can't exercise, the air is thick with pollution from all the generators in this neighborhood so I keep getting sick, and there's so much noise 24/7 because of said generators (which sound like a lawn mower orchestra) that my stress is at an all-time high.

As far as chances of escape go I'm at the mercy of RNGesus and the dice keep landing on 1's.

I keep wondering what it'll take for me to be able to move out again, but every train of thought eventually arrives to "pure luck". Take past year, for example: I order parts for a rig that I could use for work (with help from tge family), mail decides to delay their arrival until months later, the build ends up unusable due to a bad part, I spend months more saving up for a replacement and the moment I get it and start working we get two hurricanes and a months-long blackout.

Hindsight keeps torturing with the many should'ves that could've prevented all this. Should've exercised more, should've moved somewhere I could more easily walk/take the bus places, should've transferred my ADD prescription to a local psychiatrist before my old one was arrested for pedophilia, etc.

Instead I linger, wing it despite not knowing much of the world and end up with over $20k in debts in a place that won't even let me work and pay it back.

No matter how much I ponder and note the factors that were out of my control (mostly involving my health), I still can't help but feel I failed horrendously at life.

Puerto Rico is a trap designed to keep you from ever leaving. Ludicrous prices, stupid-high crime rates, hurricanes, weak infrastructure—all designed to keep you from saving what you earn. Leaving for the mainland is the easiest out and in 2008 I took it.

And then I let myself slip, got evicted and got punted back here.

I love how the only power company truck to grace this neighborhood five months into a blackout was a frickin' debt collector.

"No, pardon me, not interested in fixing all those poles and cables serving as lawn decorations across the street—we just want cash out of this person."

I am. So tired. Of this ongoing bullshit.

Welp. Set up a ko-fi page:
https://ko-fi.com/aicaya

Just gotta remember to link to it anytime I post an image. :V

I should probably make a ko-fi account when next I have access to my PC (in two days, maybe? I dunno, depends on a lot of stuff).

@MissSnarkerson
Yep.

In less than a week, it'll be exactly four months since last I had electricity.

I hate this fucking island.

@MightyBigCar
Mainly the feel to it. Dip pens allow for more control over line width than regular pens, but the crow in particular allows for really thin ones compared to the others that I've tried. More convenient than having to switch between pens of differing widths.

First pic inked with a crow quill. Definitely prefer it over the usual pens. (cw: nudity)

#art #mastoart #touhou

https://octodon.social/media/5NB3hA9ZouRxT6JBGaE

Never thought I'd ever see an official Touhou manga in English but I'm glad it happened. Especially since it's my favorite of the book spinoffs.

Should probably draw some fanart soon. :V

https://octodon.social/media/GaUyUbYwxDHXWNPVy_k