Really wish I could just change my legal name and gender while still in the island without my paranoia rightfully kicking in.

Most of my family's either very socially-conservative or so Catholic they would definitely call the local priest for an intervention if they found out my gender. Doesn't help that for most members mocking others is so deep in their DNA it's impossible to call them out on it—and I KNOW they'd mock me just 'cause they used my preferred name on the fucking cat.